boo

ASSALAMUALAIKUM :)

Okay , for this post .. I wanna write about my boo pulak. hehehe. So , tahun ni its gonna be our 8th years of being together . Weeee~ lama jugak la kitaorang bertahan with each other. We do have fights here and there . But hey, that's what keeps us stronger. Sebab dah lama sangat tak update, Haikal pon dah kerja dah now. hahaha. how fast time flies kan? dari start dating dekat Seremban 2 and terminal one everytime outing, to working at Kedah dah dia sekarang . hm.. yeah.. jauh.. I know. it hurts knowing that I gotta go through this LDR for a long time sampai la kitaorang nikah . Baru laa dapat duduk dekat . hihih . inshaAllah kalau ada jodoh (nak jugak) hihi. Susah tau duduk jauh2 ni . Zaman belajar lain , ni lain . Sebab masa aku study dekat Ipoh and johor, dia still ada dekat Selangor and nismilan which is tak jauh pon if nak jumpa everytime aku balik cuti . But now, bila dia yang jauh , susah betul nak jumpa, Yelah ..kerja kan..berapa banyak kali jela pon boleh cuti . Hati ni kena kuat sikit la. gaduh sana sini tu biasa sangat dah . Its hard tauu bila jauh. its not easy. Nak solvekan problem bila jarak jauh ni. hmm. damn .. I just wanna be with you already sayang .Semoga semua dipermudahkan untuk kita go forward to the next phase in life. Cause its always been you that I want. <3 Bila dah besar ni , kalau boleh , aku malas nak tell him how to love me , or how to treat me . Tapi kadang-kadang laki ni , dia tak faham sangat all the clues and hints. Kau kena explain terus terang how u want things to go. But ofcourse la , kita mesti taknak la everything kita kena tell kan . Rasa macam kita controlling . I don't want him to love me the way I want . I  want him to love me the way he should. Cause im that clingy girl. I love attentions. I love being spoilt with love. I love it when he tells me he love me . how he would sacrifice his time and energy just to see me . I wanna see that kind of effort  or how he remembers all the tiny details about me . No I don't want your money. I want your love and attentions cause that is all that matters to me. If I ever feel down or sad, do comfort me with your actions and love.  Hold my hand , hug me . kiss my forehead.  I love that shit. 

Degree

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Wow .. its been like ..idk how many years has it been since I last updated my blog. Zaman poli maybe? hahaha. anyway , there's a lot that has been going throughout these years . I finally pursuing my degree in architecture. Nak masuk final semester dah pun. Alhamdulillah . Lookin' forward to finish my studies with a first class degree perhaps? inshaAllah . Semoga dipermudahkan lah harapan nak grad with flying colors nanti. hihihi . So during my studies here, in UTHM ..met a lot of new friends.. ada yang hilang ,ada yang makin bertambah .I'm glad and happy that there's still friends who stayed during my worst , up until now. Thank you guys . Anyway , gonna tell a bit about my life for the past 3 years in UTHM. Life wasn't easy . Kalau dulu dekat poli aku rasa macam dah tough.. huh.. degree life is much way shittier.  Not saying that everything's bad . But the kerja yang kena buat tu ..mashaAllah..boleh sakit jantung. hahaha. Seksa jugak la kerja-kerja yang kena assigned tu . Raya and family gatherings kena kacau tu benda biasa. Orang malam raya berseronok, aku dok menghadap laptop lagi buat kerja sampai 3-4 pagi . Kena la sabar sikit kan . Sikittttt je lagi nak end this degree. Semoga tak putus asa untuk sem akhir ni . Amin . okay . idk what else to talk about . Rasa akward pulak putting it here . Nak rant dekat twitter kang banyak sangat . hahaha. so yeah .. itu je kot . bye .

Do you love you ?

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Hi , so yeah..today's topic is about "do you love you?" . All started with Insecurities. Insecurities is  uncertainly or anxiety about oneself or to be easy,lack of confidence.When you feel down or low self esteem for seeing someone else's success, beauty or anything good on them that you wished for your entire lifetime.Not that you feel jealous in a bad way or 'busuk hati', but..you really wish to be that particular person. Well, personally..i always tend to feel insecure for pretty girls out there.Lagi-lagi bila bukak 'explore' in instagram.I tend to see soooooo much pretty girls.I dont really stalk good looking guys..but all i stalk is all those pretty girls and end-up feeling bad about myself and sometimes..i feel like crying and i asked myself.."how could i ever be like those girls?" At the age of 20 now, i still look like a potato where i dont know how to make up like other girls.I dont know how to wear shawl like other girls or be fashionable wearing high heels..classy and fancy clothes dan sekutu dengannya.I JUST DONT. Even to wear a lipstick sometimes i feel uncomfortable and inconfident..so i just wear a lip gloss.I tend to think that people would laugh at me if i try to impress myself so much.Yeahh..Seriously.Anyway..there was this one time..i went for a date with my boyfriend. At first..i felt nothing.I was totally happy and all..until its time for solat Asar and i went to the surau.And as soon as i entered in, my self esteem dropped like from 100% to 0 after seeing soooo much pretty girls in the Surau.How clean and flawless their face are.How skinny they are.How fashionable they are and all i was wearing was just a jeans and a long sleeve shirt.Then..after praying..i looked at myself in the mirror(typical girls thang to betulkan our tudung), i felt so sad for not being the most pretty girl .I felt sorry for my bf for having me as his girl.Then..my day was dull. I cant stop thinking about it even my bf notices it and he kept on asking what he did wrong when actually, i made myself mental brakedown for giving s shit about those stuff .But i didnt tell him the reason why until i arrived home.So, the next date we had..when its time for solat..i was walking towards the surau then my bf came up to me and whispered " nanti masuk dalam surau, kalau nampak perempuan lawa, jangan rasa insecure or sedih..sebab Nadia dah cantik dah" . hahahaha. i never expect he would say such thing and remember about it. It was funny tho. seriously . anyway..thanks Haikal. . thanks for keep on praising me eventhough i still dont believe it until now.hahaha. But sometimes..i could be confident but not to the extend of 100% confident..maybe 75% ..I think..i dont really have to change myself..my look..my style like those girls..just to fit in the situation or just to follow the trend of wearing make up..or wearing shawl(which to me, i look weird wearing it). So, i just be me..wear my tudung bawal as always .Wear shirts and jeans and put my sneakers on.Be real , you dont have to fake yourself because people asked you to or because you wanna be like them when the fact is,you arent comfortable with it. And most import thing, if you ever feel like you're not good enough for someone just because your confident level is low as heck,just chill.If someone wants to be a part in your life,they would accept you for who you are and not that different person you turned yourself into.Get it?Chin up girls, you are pretty enough as god created you perfectly.Conclusion,love yourself as much as you can,because..  i love me . What about you ? DO YOU LOVE YOU ?